Why does it have to be one or the other? Is it really: my friends or you. I guess if I really had to make a choice it would be my friends, because, well, I love them. And I don’t love you. Yeah, I like you, but really? I am going to marry you? I’m almost positive I’m not. I apologize, I know I’ve been giving you mixed signals, cuz I don’t even know what I want.
Let’s be serious, I’m 14. Love love isn’t in our comprehension. I need to wait, to see what I want. I’ve been praying to God, asking Him to help me make my decision, and it was as if they had gone unanswered. But today, of all people, Dawson told me that something bad is going to happen. And that wasn’t the first time I’ve heard that. People up and down have been spitting negative things about him.
I never listened. Not till today. Maybe they’re right. What was that expression again? ‘Blinded by love’? But its just whenever I see you, my heart just goes into helicopters. Distance. That’s what we need. No more hugging, no more nicknames, no more going out, no more texting 24/7. Distance.